demo album
6 tracks so far, this is my sound submission for the Contemporary Issues in Sound Art module. I have been writing these compositions over the last few months in alignment with my theoretical research.
The project ‘hope and fun’ is a development in my compositional style from my previous reflective ambient music towards a hyper kind of dance music. oops, everything is dance music! This music has an accelerated form that could encourage latching on to with movement.
This kind of hyper music I have been writing for the last two years for live performances, but I have never formed them into finished compositions. The music is full of earworms and frazzlement, and I avoided exploring it for a while. Writing this music was somehow isolating and difficult in the way the compositions consumed my mental states into the frying pan, but I was excited about what was coming out so I continued to write. It felt like an amplification of my own frazzled states, trying to hold onto the heart while going through stress and metamorphosis in the fast pace of London.
The holding of the ‘heart’ is a kind of longing. The heart could be a grouping of those evolutionary technologies of compassion, solidarity and awe that formed over millienium of collective, collaborative living. The longing is a part of our desire for those feelings of connection and love between humans and non-humans. It’s an idealism that is represented through ‘naivity’ of melody and la la la.
My third little album was called ‘The Longing Waves’ which I released in 2020. I wrote this on the liner notes: “What can be heard, what is left, is the longing waves, these ruminations, little rumbles under a solid plastic world. Sometimes they flower into a piece of art that renders heart, or a little smile; a ‘connection’. With enough ‘connection’, we can collectively realize this destructive truth: that we are looking in the same direction. The truth that will destroy our plastic nests, and to reveal a love nest underneath. Remove these shackles to a love nest! It’s here, to be embraced, expressed and to be danced with.” It sounds so naive! I feel the power of naivity and idealism. I also believe my viewpoint has changed through recent theoretical research, and destructive forces become sonified in my music.
I have always had simple melodies running around in my head like earworms. When I started composing I tried to make them sound more cool but it didn’t work! Now I embrace my simple naive melodies and believe in their potential.
I have not wrote about my compositional process while writing this music, because it somehow interupts the process. I wanted to avoid contextualising this music, but now it is interesting to reflect and notice how my compositions related to my research. My questions about accelerationism and the idea to inject some kind of ethics into accelerated music were explored through my creative practice.
I will write some words on each composition.
the bridge ~ The title is inspired by Franco ‘Bifo’ Berardi’s concept of the bridge, “The bridge over the abyss of the absence of meaning can take many forms: falling in love, tenderness, collective creation, hallucination, and movement.” The composition goes through a change halfway through the track, where previous elements are deconstructed to form a joyful opening, a happy together frazzlement. The beginning is sort of pensive, so to me it feels like the opening of a question. Perhaps a friendship over a question, and I wrote it after meeting a new friend in Portugal with whom I shared resonant visions and awe. The composition incorporates melodies from old Irish music, and also percussive form from trap music. I was excited with this because I am interested in exploring my Irish heritage with reforming elements into contemporary music form. I was excited that I made a slappy beat with hearts floating around it!
side eye w bird ~ I write most of my compositions at my desk in my bedroom, which has a window above that faces the garden. In moments of intensity I would catch eye contact with a bird. I imagined we could share similiar angst for an environment that we both share. This track explores that ‘interspecies heart’ or something.
donkey drop ~ another track that explores longing within other species. Where I grew up in Ireland there was a donkey who had a field to themself. I always felt a strong longing from donkeys. I thought it would be fun to incorporate animal voices into the drop form that resembles USA dubstep, injecting a wholesome story into a popular form. Thinking of post-irony, holding our attraction and repulsion to ‘commercial’ or ‘pop’ music as a sort of post-hegelian dialectic. Making it funny and making a point.
another day grr’reidhlean ~ the most frazzled. Reidhlean is gaelic for a field for dancing and games. The rooster melody is another expression of earthly longing. To me this track represents a rising out of depressive states. Sometimes people think I am happy all of the time because my music sounds ‘joyful’! I imagine joyful aesthetics, like hope and fun, may not be ignorant towards regimes of power and violence, but could be a way to explore that darkness while holding an ideal. The claim for hope and fun is directly related to my experiences in London club scenes that lean towards aesthetics of nihilism and ‘darkness’. People want to be cool, but maybe we hide vulnerability! This track has little screams between the drops that could suggest another day of stress. Maybe this is a form of sonic vaccination with added hope vitamins.
dance without organs ~ referring to the Deleuzian concept of a body without organs; the potential of a body without organisational structures. Dancing has always been a great metaphor to me, in how subconcious desire could interact with a changing environment. A world in motion requires movement into it. A fluid jiggly self releases stress and offers connection. Sometimes I have very happy accelerated states where things rush into place. The sound design and music reflects this merging with and fluidity with an environment.
hey end 🙂 ~ I wrote this song a while ago. Another song about forcing joy. There is no escape, so let’s have fun! I was definitely reading about the end of the world when I wrote this. I thought, if the end of the world has already happened, if the cracks are glowing, then let us seize the opportunity. Collapse is a terrible opportunity. New ideas are possible when we become disullioned with violent paradigms. This song utilises acceleration to spread a message of naive longing, through the cracks, into the rushed body. I felt very inspired by my amazing friends who would create joy in difficult moments.
The music has expressed my desire to fit my style into more popular forms. When I built my acoustic sculpture for the exhibition, I felt a moment of disconnect with what was happening around me in music scenes and cultural production. The calling for slowness and ecological intimacy felt like it dissipated into thin air with no one there to hear it. I felt a desire to form my music into an accelerated form that coud reach more people. When I play this music live some people enjoyed and danced to it. People said it made them happy. In regards to my essay on sonic vaccination, I feel like this music parallels the parodoxes of our modes of liberation. I am involved in many harmful infastructures to try to make my messages about longing, hope, love, vulnerability. So many things are problematic! I couldn’t deny my longing to make this music. I hope to release it with a label this year, and that it may go on to inspire some kind of hope or heart or something.
A note on vulnerability, the sound design in many tracks sort of represents and frazzlement, things falling apart, being a bit clumsy! The melodies call out like a vulnerable heart. Being vulnerable towards something harsh. I want to express the idea that its ok to feel tension and stress in contemporary life and fall over sometimes! We don’t need to march around like bosses.